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Kantong Hidup

Sesaat yang terlintas belom kerasa disekujur tubuhku. Langit indah mambang kuning. Semilir dua milir angin tidak dapat kerasa. Meja bundar, telah menjadi saksi kepada putaran waktu hidup. Dan kini hitungan jiwa hilang entah kemana. Mencari aku saat hanya ditemani bulan dan buntel-buntelan asap. Tiada yang bisa mengatasi si arjuna hidup, karena hidup hanya hidup. Sebesar apapun, marah dan benciku didalambiru hatiku. Maka saat sesuatu yang jelek hadir menjadi sahabat hidup terbisiklah hati dengan nada yang membuat kau kaget, bergemerincingan. Burung-burung mulai berdendang, dan aku mulai melamun dengan irama dendangan sang burung-burung yang bebas berterbangan. Ijin yang diberikan hanyalah karena kau bernama manusia, namun terpisah akhirnya saat kau pulang kebawah buat selamanya. Hidup bagaikan ban mobil yang berputar, saat kau salah putar arah maka nyasar juga dia akhirnya. Karena cinta, kegagalan diri, maka matilah dikau tanpa disadari.

Kantung sampah, merantai jalur-jalur hidup. karena kekotoran hidup hanya wajar dilontar jauh dari diri yang kotor. Dia bahan ato pohon yang melindungi hidupmu saat kekotoran mulai menhiasi diri. kata-kata jorok mulai terucap dari bibir sang arjuna hidup, kesabaran tak lagi terlihat dalam dirinya. Karena katong sampah yang disimpan buat dirinya telah membuatkan dia berasa seperti sampah yang terbiar di jalanan. Bola mataku sembari mengangguk, cengiran hidup melebar, sang arjuna hidup mulai merasa puas, bagaikan macan yang kekenyanggan saat buruan pertamanya berhasil.

Hasil yang aku sendiri belom tau, namun biarkan piring-piring porselan bulan menjawab segalanya.

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Still waiting for a call from Melvin. The student consultant for the Cntr for Applied Psycholoical Studies. Since the school are offering the course that i've been looking for. Went to the Education Fair at Suntec yesterday, it started of with full of disappointment in me, as i just thought that non of the institution is offering the courses that im looking for. But finally, after the second tour before i tuck off my ass from the hall, i managed to find it =). I've been thinking to further up my studies in Aussie.yes!Aussie. I mean it's better to join in a direct way, unlike now indeirectly. And so i'm doing some basic research for the field that i've been craving for to play with. This inst. sounds interesting to me, as they are registered with the Singapore Psychological Society. 19K, with the complete stuff that you need in hand for the future.cheap.half of me are craving for a new experiences and environment. New environment/people/procedure/rules and etc. just could help you in searching your own inner self. Something stopped me from that, as the inst. are offering so much privilleges.

My body keep on aching since the past few days. Busy + happy helping dad painting the house.I need a massage. a great masseau. Was thinking if i should change the colour of my room to lavender added up with Hedda curtain. Guess it makes a good combination for my new look room. After 6 years of last painted, since we first shifted to this unit. I'm craving for bubble Tea and Big Mac.


























Continuing my painting now, gtg.Blog again.

Personality Quick Test.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.


What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.


The Handwriting Analysis.

If you write some strokes thickly but others are
thin, it's likely that you're a very unpredictable person. Sometimes you'll get
very serious about something, but there's always the possibility that you'll
suddenly lose interest. It can take you a long time to complete a task--if it
gets done at all before something else grabs your attention.

Jeans and Personality
All Styles of JeansSome people do collect all types of jeans as listed. This definitely shows that they also have a collection of personalities as well. One thing is for sure, these persons are very adaptable, changing with the times, and probably get bored very quickly. In other words, they do what they feel like at the spur of the moment.

Faded and Worn Out JeansPeople:

who adore old worn out jeans show that they are just plain simple, down-to-earth persons who aren't hung up with money or status symbols.

The Real You.

You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.

Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

What's yours?

Check it out: http://www.quizbox.com/

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Ache

Written on Saturday, August 16, 2008 at Saturday, August 16, 2008.

I'm feeling stupid right now.

My body is aching very badly

yet, the other half of me wanting so much

to post my thoughts.

This gonna be short and simple

Coz i know i'm going to buzz off, soon. -_-zZzZz.

I'M LOOSING MY SAY.

MY MIND IS SHUTTING DOWN.

I'LL CONTINUE TOMORROW.

SORRY.

BUT I REALLY NEED A REST.

BUBBYE.

ANYWAY, THOUGH MY BODY IS ACHING

BUT MY MIND COULDN'T STOP REMINDING

MYSELF THAT MY SCHOOL PROJECT ARE WAITING

FOR ME.I'M TIRED OF READING THOSE ESSAY.

p.s. Ary, I'll try to make it for Dekotora gig, tomorrow aite.Ciao bibeh!

Dopamine

Written on Tuesday, August 12, 2008 at Tuesday, August 12, 2008.

When i need 'it' to make me enter
into another world, it makes me smile deep inside.
It keeps me drowsy
and keep me remain together with it as the world and me.
I've been not doing that well this few days.
Maybe i'm just too tired.
Or just due to stuffiness weather.
Was checking under the Classified earlier on.
Regarding about the degree programme.
Nothing much special there.Burrghhh~~!!!
Had a bad cough earlier on+ ULCER!.
Gosh, i've never seen blood came out from my mouth before.
And my lung started pumping faster.
It's getting painful.
But still i keep myself compose.
Hopefully 'it' will not come again, for me.
I really need this strength and energy for now.
for goodness sake.

Later on, class gonna start at 7 in the evening.
I don't think it's a good idea of having night classes.
my axon is having some difficulties in digesting the information.
And sending the information and store it in my Thalamus. -_-
Bad managment.All i can say.
I'm sorry to 'you' , 'you' , and 'you'
for oblivious myself from your presence.




P.S. It does really work for minor oral irritations & denture discomfortation/injuries.

Olimpiade

Written on Sunday, August 10, 2008 at Sunday, August 10, 2008.

I feel something is missing,
it's far away from me
i know i'm loosing it soon or later
half of me just don't wish it to happen
half of me wouldn't mind if it really turn out to be reality
I'm in a confusion.
I'm in a unstable state.
I feel the emptiness, it has been ages.
I couldn't find the trueness.
I keep it going like a water that fall
without knowing what's moon and sun.
It shines too bright that it makes me feel
keeping my eyes closed.

A process of searching 'identity'??
It's too subjective, shut your mouth when you know nothing about this.

In Psychologically:
In search of the gifted identity, from abstract concept to workable counseling constructs
By Andrew S. Mahoney M.S.,L.P.C., L.M.F.T.
Abstract Knowing one's giftedness and having a well-developed sense of identity as a gifted person are crucial for the development of the self. Many gifted people struggle with their giftedness, what it means to be gifted and how to develop that potential because there are few models available to assist in the identity development and counseling of gifted people. Moreover, identity itself is often viewed as an abstract concept, making the task of bridging this concept to pragmatic applications highly challenging.
The Gifted Identity Formation Model, presented here, helps bridge the theoretical with the practical, includes identity and its formation as crucial variables in the counseling process and uses identity as the baseline for intervention. The model aids with assessment and helps deliver counseling related interventions that explore and strengthen the identity and identity formation of gifted people, in turn enhancing the health and development of the self.
There are many conceptual challenges to understanding the issues related to identity formation in the gifted. One is to understand what goes into the formation of a gifted person's identity. A second and perhaps more involved challenge rests in the pragmatics of helping to foster a healthy and relevant identity for a gifted person. The need for differentiated and specialized counseling services for the gifted is evident throughout the literature (Moon, Kelly & Feldhusen, 1997; Treffinger & Feldhusen, 1996; Feldman, 1996; Rocamara, 1992; Alverado, 1989; Coangelo, 1989). Recently David Feldman (1996) called for an expansion of human development theories to include the unique characteristics and developmental needs of gifted people. However, the problem is that there are few differentiated models that counselors, educators, and other professionals can use to help counsel the gifted and to help strengthen the development of an identity integrated with giftedness. The task of integrating an intricate and complex concept such as giftedness or the development of a gifted identity into workable counseling applications offers a multifaceted challenge.
The Gifted Identity Formation Model is a differentiated counseling model which attempts to bridge the theoretical constructs relating to identity formation in the gifted with the practical aspects of counseling gifted people. For the purposes of this model, giftedness is defined as exceptional ability in a variety of areas such as intellect, the arts and creativity. Giftedness is also viewed as an aspect or aspects of the self. This article illuminates the complexity, process and nuances of identity formation relating to the gifted, and then provides an overview of a differentiated model that incorporates identity formation into the counseling process for the gifted population.


Identity and Its Formation
Defining identity may be as complex as developing one's identity; even Eric Erikson (1968) was hesitant to offer a definitive explanation. It may be that the definition includes the unity and integration of all aspects of self, including the conscious and unconscious. It may be that another way to define identity is through answering the question, "who am I?"
If identity encompasses the complexity of all aspects of "who I am," then identity formation is the process of integrating and shaping discrete pieces of the self into a unique being. Erikson (1968) spoke of identity formation as "a process located in the core of the individual and yet also in the core of his communal culture" (pg. 22). He refers to the integrative and complex relationship between the inner self (all inner aspects and internal interplay of the self) and the outer world (self as it relates and contends with the external world). He described a "few minimum requirements" to consider when contending with the complex process of identity formation. The Gifted Identity Formation Model utilizes these requirements as the working


underpinnings of the model:
Identity formation employs a process of simultaneous reflection and observation;
Identity formation takes place on all levels of mental functioning;
An individual judges himself in light of what he perceives to be the way others judge him, in comparison to himself, and to a topology significant to others.
Identity formation for Erikson was largely unconscious, indicating how much he believed the inner world of the self influenced identity. He believed the process was "for the most part unconscious except where inner conditions and outer circumstances combine to aggravate a painful or elated identity-consciousness" (p 23). Erikson was referring to what occurs when an individual is not in synch with her true self. For example, even though Mary was told since childhood that she was gifted, she did not view herself as such and was very distressed over her career choice as an adult. She complained constantly that her chosen life's work was not in tune with who she really is, but had no sense on how to redirect herself. It is also important to keep in mind that Erikson never saw identity as static or unchangeable but believed identity formation was a life-long process. Therefore, the Gifted Identity Formation Model operates under the principle that development and integration of one's giftedness must be accounted for as a variable in the healthy development of the self's identity across the life span.


Nothing much going on for today.
Was at home all the way,
doing my assignments reading those article for this coming Tuesday lesson,
as so i will not left out with the facts of the article.
Two and a half yrs gonna end soon, and i will be graduating.
See i'm just kinda pissed off with the psychology field in singapore.
Unlike Aussie, wide branch and choices.
I can't move about that much in singapore.STUPID!!!
I'm sorry if i didn't answer your call Ary & Zad.
I'm loosing my mood as day goes by.
Feeling nauseated, velement,uncomfortable,grumpy = FRUIT PUNCH FEELINGS.okay CRAP!
Guess that's all i have to say for today.

Written on Saturday, August 9, 2008 at Saturday, August 09, 2008.

This is for you, my best friend,

the one person i can tell my soul too

Who can relate to me like no other

Who I can laugh with to no extents,

Who I can cry too when times are tough,

Who can help me with the problems of my life.
Never have you turned your back on me

Or told me I wasnt good enough Or let me down
I don't think you know what that means to me

You have went through so much pain and you still have time For me.

And I love you for listening even when inside

YOU are dying And I look up too you because you are strong,

and caring and beautiful.

Even though you don't think you are.
And I hope you know that I am always here

To listen to you laugh and cry and help In all the ways that i can

And I will try to be at least half the friend you are To me.
I hope you know I would not be the person

I am today, with out you.

My best friend.

With Regards to Ary. :)

Ary the Tarzan pakai conditioner

Written on Friday, August 8, 2008 at Friday, August 08, 2008.

Today
Just got back from NLB, tryng to finish up those assignments.

Ezad thought of asking ary and me out to Botanic Garden

Last minute canceled.

And well, i keep myself busy with assignments.

Went off to NLB ard six.

I HATE GOING OUT WHEN IT COMES TO PH!

IT WAS ONE HELL PACKED!

So yea, met ezad at Bugis.

He thought of asking me to esplanade, with Leza and others.

Sorry dude, i have to get all my work done soon.

Norami, has been bugging me to meet him since last month.

But see, my mood was totally change!

Yea, due to the crowd.It's PH!

Had myself chicken spicy at BJ. That's all i had for my dinner/supper.

MET WIN

Thursday

SPENDING MY TIME WITH EZAD,LEZA & ZAK.

That's about it!

Wednesday

Okay, wednesday was hillarious!

Was suppose to be a gloomy and sad day for me.

But this best buddy of mine made it a colorful day for me!Thanx Tarzan

You are much appreciated, sincerely by Jenab(i'll get you a new conditioner, soon{REWARD}).

Okay, so we went to Botanic Garden(last min. pln).

Just to spend our time there.

As i just need a peaceful place for myself.

I really need time off for myself!

I brought eggmayo, that i made myself a day before.

While Tarzan brought so much things.Thanx ya Tarsan!

Okay i'm just too lazy to type more.

Here are some pictures that we took on that day.

the consequences when tarzan apply too much conditioner

The Stars

Written on Monday, August 4, 2008 at Monday, August 04, 2008.

some times i sit and look at the stars,
and ill name the brightest one after your name,
because no matter where i go,or where i am,
theres always some thing that reminds
the days we laughed and first kissed,
that night at the movies,all snuggled and sweet.
Because every one knows that we were meant to be together,
thats why i shall wait until your ready to try again,
because your name is with mine,
imprinted in my heart,
and remember when your ready to love ill be here thinking of you.