I'm bored.bored.bored!Had a good time with edi and ary, after almost 3 years we(me & edi) lost cntact.I felt satisfied and accomplished with the job and responsibilities that had been given to us.Give me 5 ARY!I just feel annyoyed with the crowd at cityhall..sheeshhh~~!!annoying.people are busy watching the F1 wannabe race.Today plan has been canceled due to my chest pain, while khai couldn't make it, as he need to do some house preparation before HR.I woke up with the shortness breathe, and struggling my best to breathe as pernormal.Damn, i couldn't.Been trying to call ary number of times, but guess she was still asleep.I ended up calling khai, teling him if i couldn't breathe well and im terribly in pain.Wouldn't want to bother him, as he has his task need to be done.So yea, i told ary to go ahead with the plan of the day with a'im.Hopefully u guys are enjoying your weekends.HR is coming in few days time...I'm terribly down,lost,empitness in me.Urghh! hate this feelings.I will not be going back to bandung for this year, as aunty and her family will be coming over to singapore to celebrate HR with us.Celebrating HR in sg doesn't seems fun as they always thought of.Agnes, Christopher, wan and lin will be coming over to my place later on.I'm not sure for what purpose they're coming over to my place.So yea, dad cooked the egg banadage.MY FAVOURITE!and the nicoise salad.*yummyyummyy*.I feel like joining the dekotora's jamming session today, but see...i'm deadly weak...my chest, my shortness breathe, they seems stopping me from going out...I couldn't even search for my stuff today...-_-*pissed off*.I'll be deadly busy on monday.I'LL BE TAKING OVER DAD'S PLACE THIS YEAR, I'LL BE THE CHEF!HEH!and GUESS WHAT?!!
dad was asking me about the degree course, i told him about the programme period and stuff. and dad was asking me, i'm really serious and really into the 'THE HOUSE OF CHOCOR'E'. WITHOUT THINKING MUCH, OF COURSE IT'S A 'YES'!!heh!I wanted it to be in bandung instead of jakarta..stuffy crowd town.He was sharing with me, about his idea and recipe *family secret*. I feel like writing about my thoughts, and 'things' that has been bothering me for the past few days.
Anyway, i love Dan Nainan stand comedy. He's great.Do it more Dan!

It's 4.27 am right now.But still i'm not asleep.After putting down the phone with khai, i was doing some self revision for the coming exam this tuesday.wish me luck.Had a good time yesterday,i was calling khai, asking if he's working ard wisma, so yea, coincidentally he was doing window there.I was thought of collecting that ACUVUE contact lense that optics 2000.But sadly + stupidly, shit happens!My hp was automatically off by itself, and once i on it again, all the messages GONE.ASSHOLE!Mahfuz was busy telling me to wake up, and not to slp coz in 4 minutes time it's turning to 4am.Annoying thick lips mahfuz but thanx for keep me awake.so yea, after we makan at the taka basement food ctr, we went to the taka stationery section. That little boom boom, khai was looking for a new stylish funky pen.Heh!I was thought of getting the pink laptop casing.I was trying to ask dad, if i could get the casing earlier on.But it ended up with a disappointment.I don't care, i'll get by myself, with my own saving!We took 190 to clarke quay, nice,nice,nice!!I love the colourful light!awesome!So we sat along the river, watching the river festival.Khia was bloody damn shocked after he got to know if i have not came to clarke quay.I've went there few times, but didnt get to come across such festival.Oh yea!we had cupcake too!Khai bought for me.thanx!I had kit kat and errghh...i forgot whats the other one.I didn't really that the one that i forgot the name.I would prefer kit kat, than e other one.Ary deary, we should it one of dis daes.While we were seatingalong the river, we were talking abt the future, whats next, and more*confidential*. Made our way back from CQ to raffles plc ard 9.There was a group of guys playing percussion, they just remind me of ary.I was happily wanted so much to share abt what happened earlier on. Though it's a simple plan, with the last minute plan, but still i'm enjoying it.Thanx khai.

Later on, maybe i will be meeting Ary and Fala, and maybe after that i'm off to meet khai.I hope ary is doing fine, and be stronger than before.Things happened for a reason.So much things happened that make us today.And be who we are today.We're stronger than last night because of today shit, that keep us grow.Be strong.I'm always by your side.A guy like him, just dont worth your time, effort and sacrification.He'll be there, when he really aware of this 'crucial moment'.I wanna sleep.Bubbye.

P.S.- MAHFUZ, AKU TIDUR DULU.MATA AKU DA STIM KODOK.

Here's the quiz result!

^ The person who tag you is?
ARY FRANCESCA (anak angkat francesca peter)hahhah!!

^ Your relationship with him/her is??
Full-time hardestcore horny sex partner.

^ Your five impressions of him/her??
Down to earth, talkative(1 person with 10 mouth),Mentally Disorder,Defender and
mcm J-MANG!hahaha.

^ The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
Carik kan aku khai.hhahah

^ The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
"Babe, aku sayang kaw"hahah "KAW JGN JADI BODOH BOLEH TAK!?STAND FOR YOUR RIGHT"
hahaha "takperlah kite buruk, kitekan dah ade org yang sayang"MUAHAHAHAH!!!
You will never get to see the cock got 'sunat' cause we talk cock endlessly.

^ If he/she become your lover you will??
Offer her to check-in hotel with me, for a wk.hehehe.

^ If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve in will be??
Go and put on dildo before check-in with me.hahah.

^ If he/she become your enemy, you will?
Confront her to seat straight in the school hall (adss).hahah.

^ If he/she become your enemy , the reason will be??
I got sick and tired of watching her running ard the stadium almost every year.
*mata aku terbakar*. hahahah.

^ The mot desired thing you want to do for him/her now is??
Smoke and have a cup of coffee/tea!mkn nutella 20 cent pon okay.

^ Your overall impression of him/her is??
Mulut j-mang, 1 head 10 mouth

^ How you think peple around you will feel about you.
Insane.

^ The characters you love of yourself are?
Understandable,laughing in histeria,outgoing eh??*dont know*

^ On the contrary, the characteristic you hate most about yourself are??
Ultra-sensitive. -_-

^ The most ideal person you want to be is??
Kat Von D.Feist.Tyra bank.Francoise Hardy.PINK

^ For people that care and like you, say something to them??
To all my fans, thank you so much for supporting me through the way out. and thanx
for the grammy award.thank so much to fans, from the whole world.Thank you, once
again.

^ Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you
pass to people that have blog only.
ANYONE WHO STILL FULLY CONSCIOUS, AND AWARE ABOUT THEIR BLOG.

Hi again.Here i am right now at my aunt place in class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">sabah bernam. It has been a while since the last time i went back to Malaysia, to visit my god family.That little cutie Danish is getting cleverer.CUTIE PIEEEE</span>~~!!I'm not travelling alone with the presence of assignments to sabah,stupid -_-. I had fun here, met those 'long lost' god relatives.They just thought if class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">i'm already done with studies.But <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">derghh~~!!I still have a long way to go.YES!YES!Degree is waiting for me.i would stop typing about the further studies.Caught in the jam last night, from 9.50pm till 12am. -_-.I'm deadly tired actually.We made our way from d="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Tuas all the way to OR_7">Kuala Mud(Lumpur)_9">hehan>!Woke up at 8am.Again, we travel all the way to lass="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">Sabah</span>. isn't it a tiring trip??YES!IT IS DAMN-DAMN TIRING TRIP!We will make a move from Sabah to Singapore tomorrow morning. The 'doa selamat' ceremony gonna start soon.I'm missing everything!!Chatting with kamal right now, just to kill time.This coming week gonna be a suckie week i guess.But really hope it'll turn up well.Ary gonna leave for IMH.I'm sorry that i couldn't make it for Mad Jack.Thought of tagging you and ai'm along, but seriously we got to rush after the breakfast.I'm hoping nothing critical in that thesis record of yours.I've got another pair of baju kurung this year. It's in white with some pink and green design.Heh!COLOURFUL!Khai of getting the same colour, BORIA!heh!guess i got to go for now.my aunt has been calling for since just now.Bubbye.Blog again.

CONGRATULATION THAT YOU HAVE WON THE 2ND PRIZE FOR THE DND DANCING COMPETITION!!TADDAAA~~!!He kept on telling me, that he couldn't believe if he has the capability to dance on the stage, and won for the 2nd prize.Congrats 'gendut'.Its your 'Himalaya stomach' that brings the luck.So, date due will be on this coming tuesday.i've just started with the introduction.Thinking hard about the essay format, i mean under the references section.I HATE DOING REFERENCE!SUCKY MUCKY DUCKY FUCKY!! -_-.And oh! The graph, i am never good in doing graph.Yes my maths is sux!sux big time!

Firstly, thanx for accompanying my morning with mcD. hotcake. breakfast.Loving it.Though it has almost been 3weeks, straight having the same menu. but still im fine with that,it's my FAVOURITE.

While was waiting for that 'gendut' i was doing my revision, for the final year exam.Wish me luck. I've just completed my neuro bio.ONLY!urghh~~!! 1 month is like a hell. Read and read and read and read!! Drive me to hell!

I've not booked my flight ticket for this year HR.Damn it!I don't feel like going this year. But still i wanna go back there, and let out all my missing towards it/them.-_-.See, it doesn't look like a HR celebration, but more to like house to house family members visiting.Maybe by luck there are still unbook seat.Or else, i guess i gonna stuck in sg.Peeuuhh!


Oh anyway! I'm getting annoyed by my room home system. Dad, can we get a new home system, instead of that Harmon Kardon set of home system. If i am given a chance to choose, i wanna get this set of home system.MULTI-COLOR.

And, anyway to that asshole get your ass off from my life.ASAP.-_-

Edwin Pramudita Wikanta

I'm here still wondering what's next. Good or bad, full of satisfaction or again, satisfied by others for the tears that i gonna waste, for ONE MORE TIME.Been trying to call ary, but i couldn't get through her. -_-. I'm here, thinking of tomorrow. I'm missing another side of my hand. The memories.The laughter.But deep inside i know the emptiness in me, had never been fill up by you.I' sorry if i really have to do this.Let off everything, crying alone ain't the right thing for me to do right now.Been thinking, but what's the point?Thousands of plan for the day to come??But things happen unpredictabily.Just like, i've always thought that i won't meet someone like you.But in the end yes, i met a person like you.Let me be the one who knows the good in you, and the more bad in you.The people around me are not necessary to know or even include this in their self knowledge.I wanna say thanks to you, all being there all this while. Being supportive and always try hrd to understand each and every situation.Though your care & attention just annoyed me, but still right now i know that how much you really care for me.I just hope that u can be extra sensitive towards a girl's need, emotionally.Though i didn't say much, during the last call but deep inside i do really cried.Yes, i do.I'm sorry for everything.Goodbye.

Hey sang arjuna cintaku!
dia bilang kau sapi, tapi kau bagaikan pepsi!
dia bilang kau pondok kecil
bagiku kaw banglow!
dia bilang kaw musibah, bagiku
kaw anugerah!
Gw louve sama lw bibeh!
Dia bilang kaw batu jalanan kecil
bagiku kau THE ROCK!
Dia bilang kaw, kueh basi!
aku bilang kaw cup-cake yang enak sekalii!
dia bilang kaw pohon karet!
aku bilang kaw pohon krismas!
GW louve sama lw bibeh!
Rindu ini hanya untukmu!
MR PEPSI! ASIKKKKK~~!!

Have to get back to my work! Blog again.Bubbye

I was walking through ard raffles place. With drop of tears accompanying me along the way to the MRT station.I was wondering what have i done previously, till i was been been punish in a such way. The MRT has arrive, Every steps make me wonder on whats next. My hand and leg was shaking badly. And again, im trauma about it. He kept on blaming me for nothing. Vulgarities came from his mouth, tears drop again i feel like i'm a punching bag in here. With nowhere to turn to. My leg keep on shaking, coz it really scare me, and my hand got cut. It started to bleed. and i just keep it to myself, cover it with shirt. and suck my own blood. My eyes started to get blur, that emblazoned images that i was staring previously, turn out to be blurry. My body started to get cold. I couldn't stop crying for almost two hours. LEAVE ME ALONE, AND FOR GOD SAKE PLEASE DO NOT SLICE OFF MY FUCKING LIFE, LIKE U ALWAYS WISH!Enough for the past few years, u make me cried in the public without thinking of my surrounding. I used to hate my dad, because of you! I got bad result for my semester 3 because of you! I left alone in the darkness, bacuase of you! I cried without no one realised bacause of you! I've found the best people in my life, and leave me in peace. I'm very thankful to have ary around. thanx babe.

Alam, seakan-akan mengerti rintihan hati. Langit turut menangis saat diri menangis. Karena sosok jiwa ini sudah mati didalam hati. Yang indah itu hanyalah sementara. Tertawa sipemilik hati saat pertama ketemu. Kebahagian yang aku cari selama ini, mungkin menjadi kado buat hidup yang sepi.Saat putaran waktu berlalu, kekosongan hati merajai hati. Kau hilang, dan aku menghilang untk menyendiri. Akhirnya dia yang aku temui, dan kusayangi. Kau bertanya antara dia dan kamu, siapa menjadi pilihan hati. Dan jawabku, dia. Kau bertanya lagi, mengapa dia. Dan aku menjawan, karena kebahagian hatiku ada didalam hatinya, bersemadi kebahagian yang aku butuhkan semuanya bersama dengannya.Apakah aku hanya sosok boneka yang bisa dimainkan, dan tiga bulan itu cukup untuk kamu buktiin apa yang kamu ngerasakan kurang dalam hati kamu sebelum ini?? Seenak-enaknya aja kamu memperlakuin seseorang itu, tanpa kamu berfikir. Karena hati mati, mati juga org yang kamu sayangi. Karena hidup otak, maka mati juga orang yang kamu butuhkan saat hilang otak.Kau tak perlu mengerti apa yang aku coba nyatakan disini. Karena kau, bukanlah seseorang yang bisa mengerti aku, semakin lama putaran waktu berlalu. Maafkan aku, bilatiba saatnya aku harus pergi dari kamu. Karena hati mati buat diri kamu.

Berulang kali, kumemohon kepadamu
namun tak pernah kau sadari
keinginanku demi masa depanmu
agar kita berdua, hidup bahagia
namun semua, kau tak pedulikan aku
sia-sia pengorbananku
maafkan kasih terpaksa kuputuskan
untuk berjalan sendiri
walau harus menyendiri
kutegarkan hati ini
biarku pasrahkan diri
meniti hari-hari sepi, walau bayang-bayangmu
menghantui disetiap tidur ku.

Helo! as pernormal im here to blog again. like derrghhh~!!Whatever it is, i had a good time with khai, ary & a'im. Thanx guys for making my day, though i had tonnes of date due still waiting for me.But still, a moment with you guys does really help me to vanish the stress in me, though just for a second.Oh khai!!!!!!!!!!!TADA!!!!AT LAST!!!!hahahahah. Met ary at my blk, and all the way we made our way to yishun to get some stuff there. She canceled her plan with her exclassmate, and join khai and me to town. Were hanging around, we had HOTcake!GREAT,GREAT,GREAT!!3stars for the hotcake. And so, we made our way to orchard walking slowly, taking our own sweet time.Pity that gendut bf of mine, kept on coughing, till his chest got hurt.Get well soon, aite.NO ICE FOR YOU,FOR NOW!We were seating at Hireen, Spinelli and guess what?!?There were this two 'keledek bengkok' guys. Guess they're from lasalle.The confused pathetic double personality guy.-_-. I was damn.damn.damn.F'king hungry!!But still there was patient in me, that i managed to control myself.And finally a'im arrived!!!FINALLY KAU SAMPAI 'MAT TERENGGANU PENYU'hahahha. He was wearing his technician uniform, with that terengganu black t-shirt walking along the streets in orchard rd.Mcm feeling-feeling kat terengganu gitukan.So, all of us made our ass off to lucky plaza.and our dinner/b'fast/lunch/supper there. Ary had 'daging kepel penyet', me and a'im had 'ayam penyet', and khai had 'rawon' as he is having a bad cough.Never force urself to cough aite.Ough yea!we bought some shades!heh!I GOT ANNOYED LOOKING AT A'IM WITH THAT GREEN FRAME, GLASSES.'LAKI GATAL.hahahahhahahaha.

Here are some photos that we took.