The kids with my hair-dryer!
Written on Sunday, November 30, 2008 at Sunday, November 30, 2008.
Posting at aunt's place, johor right now.It's been awhile since i last went back to johor to visit my family in here.Though we have no blood relation between each other but they're way better than my biological family.Though it is only a one day getaway trip to have my mind rest in peace i do enjoy it very much, having my nephew and niece here really cheer me up.I did all the breakfast preparation, the macaroni goreng and the Neslo.I've been wanting this happy moment and quality time with them, laughing together without showing any stress sign in ourself. Went out for a dinner last night with the family.My niece, Nadia, 5, seems to really enjoy her fried rice and she finished up the whole plate.hahah.she look so cute the last moment whereby she tried to get all the rice and finish up everything.And i did a facial treatment for my aunties.They claimed they gonna look 20 years younger than their actual age, so much fun moment when they're around with me.I'm going back to singapore in the evening, just before we're off back to Singapore we're heading off to mak's place.Hoping that she's doing fine.I know i've never mention about this precious lady in my life.She's the diamond of my life, brought me up having every single hard time in bringing me up.Till forever my pray is for you too mak, =). I'm meeting mama this Tuesday,hoping that my aunty will be around too,it has been years since the last time i met them.Though shit happens in me for yearss...But i don't believe in thinking negatively for the past, positivity is what you need in ourself provided to go with life.This month has been the most valueable month and as time past i've learnt lots of things.To deary ary, hoping that you're doing fine with everything when i'm away for this past few weeks.Hoping you understand that i'm cleaning up something that has been left for ages.Guess what??My aunt got a somekind of Kimono outfit, and she gave it to me!hahaha.It looks cool on me.*SS*hahah.It's a scary shit to come back to SG, coz my reality is with the stress island.Well reality is SCARY!!And only left with me to conquer with this is only my positivity.Guess, i'm having a hard time this few weeks, but it's the worth thhings that ever happened than ever.And to Eisya my deary niece, i promise to come and visit you in KL, once i'm free darling.Bubbye!
P.S. I will post few pictures and a video that i took last night after our dinner.
Here's the pictures as i've promised.
Danish and me, young mama!
The mafia.
Meet my client(aunty), a moment after applying
masker, and not it's black/white head removal time!
And ough, meet ziha and her 'trumpet'.
Ziha is getting so irresistible
Nadia is saying hello!
THERE'S IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THIS BLOG VIDEO UPLOADING THING..
I'VE TRIED NUMBER OF TIMES TO UPLOAD!BUT IT DOESN'T SEEMS UPLOAD FULLY!
Written on Saturday, November 29, 2008 at Saturday, November 29, 2008.
Here it dusty again.This week has been a busy week, or i should say this month!I didn't want anyone or anything to come and interfere me this week.
So, here are some photos that i took at sentosa (basically not i'm e one who snapped the photo).
I'm seriously got no idea how does the underwater world looks like.After i met my 'friends' there its a big relief for me.They swam positively moving here and there spending every second of their life in the aquarium.
It doesn't seems to be meaningful enough for others.
I overcome and conquer my fear to touch the stingray, and yes i just believe that's the best way on how to conquer and take charge of my own life.
Get things done as time wait for no one, take charge on what you want in life though it's isn't as easy as we thought. This week has taught me alot...to much things taught me to be an adult. Notice that soon it's turning 19 years.
And things are dusty ain't as good as back then but he doesn't seems to move on with life,
maybe he's too traumatist for him that i'm not so sure what's deep inside that remain in him.
She's moving on and left him far away,i'm happy and glad to see the happiness that she already built up.
It looks untidy here and there but it's the heart that tidy and the concordance seems to do good.I'm glad seeing him again, after 12 years of lost touch.I didn't say much on that,
i wouldn't want him to know how much i really care and love him,
though through the DNA test the red liquid that flow
is not 100% the same.
Looking at those past photos, seeing me hugging nancy seating on the cousion with her, the warmness of her touch.
And that was the last and since then i never met her till this week, the 3rd day of the week.Thanx god for answering my pray and wish.
May this stay forever, and throw behind all those culprit from interfering us this time round...
P.S. I will upload more pics.I'm just plainly lazy to upload at this time.
Written on Friday, November 21, 2008 at Friday, November 21, 2008.
I wouldn't wish it to be this way.Im tear in pain at this moment.It comes and go, i know it will be with me for the rest of my life.It wouldn't wish to flash black the 15years back memory.It makes me wonder what went wrong till mommy did that to me.And the effect haunt me till tonight.It's too painful for me to bear with it.Mom, i'm sorry if i've done anything wrong all these while, but please take this pain away from me.I hate when the weather is cold! My leg doesn't seems to function now.I'm afraid!You should have kick off my head, back then so i couldn't remember any single things that has happened and stay in my 'world'.I know this is so hard for me to bring with my rest of life.I was trying my best to stand earlier on, with the help of my wardrobe for me to hold on.But it doesn't seems to functioned.HELP ME, ANYONE?!!IS ANYONE OUT THERE COULD HEAR ME NOW??!!!!I'M in pain!!!!!IT'S PAINFUL!!!MY LEG DOESN'T SEEMS TO FUNCTION!!!GOSH!HELP ME?!!PLEASE?!?!
I need this strength to go on!ARE 'YOU LISTENING TO ME AT THIS VERY MOMENT?!!I COULDN'T DO ANY SINGLE THINGS RIGHT NOW!!I'M FEELING USELESS!!
REMOVE THIS AWAY FROM ME!!
Written on Sunday, November 16, 2008 at Sunday, November 16, 2008.
THE SCHOOL SEEMS IDIOT!!yes!Bloody idiot.I'm not extremely shock to know about the school system now.But the lecturer teaching system is getting better.that makes me still fine with them.Went out with ary and a'im on friday, i was attracted to this multi color shades.I'm loving it.Guess i'll be meeting huget after school on wednesday, he was asking me where did i get my green shades, he has been looking ard for ages. He was looking the green color like mine.So i've decided to ask him along to get the shades.and hoping so, to get a cheaper price for the two shades.I'm not sure if i can help out ary and fyzah to bake the brownies for syafiqah and hafiz birthday.Hoping that i could help them out.I was thought of going back to Johor this friday, but there'll be a dinner a fullerton this saturday.I still wanting the watch from swatch so muchhh!!!!Anyway, since when shutter shades seems cool??They look so stupid walking along the town streets with that shutter shades.It's a nice and uniqely been designed but some just make it looks idiot.Some just with dark skin + with striking colour.They look idiotically stupid!!
I was thought of asking dad to bake for me a cake for my birthday as a birthday gift. But i'm not too sure whether does he have the time for it or not.I wouldn't want to celebrate my nineteenth birthday alone just like last year.The flight got delay on that day itself, and dad went off to work to clear off some catering order, as my birthday is fall on the x'mas and new year eve.Here are some birthday cake design that i've decided to have on my birthday, here are some
design that i took from the net:
Note to mama:
I've been searching you for ages...But i couldn't find any other ways to reach you.
Deary soul, would you please send this message to mama.
I've been missing her so much.
And i'm looking forward to meet her each time i open my eyes again everyday.
Written on Wednesday, November 12, 2008 at Wednesday, November 12, 2008.
The page is getting yellowish and dusty now!Okay, it's been a busy and tiring week for me but i should say it's a good week Dad got me a Vodafone mobile connect USB stick from M1.We're paying 9bucks permonth as every of the mobile phone contract is been reduced by 25% and plus the the sim card itself is been waved.It's preety much worth.I've sign myself as a volunteer with the Kebun Baru CC for the elderly.They're actually linked with IMH, and we are required to do house to house visit.To check whether the elderly are doing okay and etc.PLUS, PLUS!! We are given a chance to do MRI/PETS/CATS scanning for the IMH patient and we will be given a certificate to show if we're qualified and able to do the scanning, in the future.On the other hand, i'm preety much happy for dad. The Head chef of SATS came over to Choupinette to have lunch there.And he was asking dad, if he could cook 1 tonne of egg banadage/royale for the airline.As now SATS are offering the halal food for their passangers.So, if you're happened to take any airline under SATS, no more worries for you and your family.
I was bloody damn embarrassed earlier on.I was seating at the smoking area of fork & spoon. I was deadly fully confident if the guy seating at the non-smoking area was a'im.My mind was saying 'ni mesti a'im'hahaha. So i decided to make a 'surprise' on him.Eventually the moment i shouted at the guy ears he turned and look at me. he was saying 'EH CHEEBYE, NO RESPECT IS IT, SHOUT AT MY EARS????!!!!!' HOLLY COW!!!!i got a wrong person hahahahaha. But from the side view he really look like a'im. Eh a'im/ary if u guys happen to read this, please go and do something with ur face(a'im) go and put some big phua chu kang mole at each side of your cheek, or do some fancy heart shape mole and paste on the both side of your cheek.So i will not ended up with full of embarrassment, AGAIN!!hahahahaha.
Written on Sunday, November 9, 2008 at Sunday, November 09, 2008.
Mungkin tiada pernah sekali pun aku ketahui gimana rasanya
segala yang telah engkau lalui.
Ada liku-liku jangan yang terlalu sukar untuk dilalui
ada juga jalan yang seenak-enaknya telah di aspal
dan kau tempuh dengan pantas.
Tarian hati mulai membakar semua rasa, karena saudaramu
Kau tidak mungkin bisa merasakan kehilangan,kesakitan,
kepayahan,ketakutan yang para wanita dan si bocah ngerasakan
Maka karena itu kau menjadi apa yang membuat kau mati
Sungguh tiada mereka mengerti setiap hari yang ditanggung.
Matinya ahli keluarga, si bayi menangis kehausan akan susu dari sang ibu
si istri menangis kekakutan saat dia butuhkan perlindugan
dari sang suami.
Kejam, sifat manusia yang bertopengkan syaitan.
Wahai saudara-saudaraku, sesungguhnya nyawa mu
bagaikan pertaruhan demi memperjuangkan
saudaramu yang dalam kesakitan.
Hidupmu karena saudara-saudaramu
matimu demi untuk menghidupkan mereka yang dalam kesakitan disana.
Tiada lain bisa ku titipkan buat mu yang jauh disana
hanya doa dariku diantara puluhan juta umat yang mengiringgi
kepergianmu.Terima kasih ku-ucapkan untuk kalian
yang perjuangkan segalanya buat saudara-saudara kita.
Written on Wednesday, November 5, 2008 at Wednesday, November 05, 2008.
Sometimes being in a good institution doesn't seems good as what people
thought on the first impression .I was been introduced to dudette
ex-class/school mate.They're one hell fun people. It's been awhile
since i went out in a group. I miss my indo. friends.They crack till i'm crack!
Just like what Derick,Jia min and the others did.I'm not saying about the
students 'there', but people tend to judge them on the first look.
But they're one hell fun and nice.Good institution are only meant to have a good education, and intellectual level of speech.
Not to have a good buddy or even communication.
Because this people seems not to appreciate friends, and they seems to be way too arrogant with what they have.Man, you're not yet a qualified psychologist/counsellor, so stop bringing your arrogant shit to the campus/class.They're one square people,
they're like a reality sponge bob square pants.
SBSP seems way better/fun than them!They're way too nice/friendly people,
till they keep on asking me to stay with them.Though it was their first time
meeting me.They welcome me, just like their family.
But still, my darling and dudettes are the best!
Thanx to ary and fala for making me notice if people like them are still exist.
Okay, i'm off for now.Skooling at 9 tomorrow!Bubbye.
Written on Sunday, November 2, 2008 at Sunday, November 02, 2008.
I know it was hard for me to move on for this during the earlier stage.
Crying thinking of the past.The promising voice of yours doesn't seems convincing enough for me.I kept on going with my own say and thoughts.
I wasn't sure if what i choose was the path for me at that point of time.
You prove me wrong.Hollycow! You caught my heart through the emblazoned.I wasn't confident enough with this.Thank you so much for being here when i'm in need.
Thank you darling.
Tanpa terasa waktu t'lah lama kujalani
Senang dan tak senang kupeluk didalam kalbu
Kusadari memang aku bukan yang terbaik
Dalam perjalanan masih banyak menyakiti
S'bagai manusia pasti ku pernah menghujat
Maafkan diriku, ku hanya ingin menghibur
Suaraku, gerakku untuk musikku
Dengarkan laguku bertaut irama
Seperti jiwa melayang bagai camar yang terbang
Sempatkanlah telinga dan mata 'tuk memujaku
Setulus hatiku jujur ku berterima kasih
Padamu Tuhanku dan semua yang menghargai
Semua yang telah setia s'lama ini padaku
Sudi mendengarkan dan menyimak segalanya
Yang buruk dariku kumohon lautan maaf
Ini nyanyianku persembahan dari hati
Wahai alam dan bumi bersatulah
Dalam nafas yang kuhembus lewat nada
Ingin ku mengelus yang muram
Membelai yang tertawa
Jadikanlah aku dewi dalam hatimu
Senang dan tak senang kupeluk didalam kalbu
Kusadari memang aku bukan yang terbaik
Dalam perjalanan masih banyak menyakiti
S'bagai manusia pasti ku pernah menghujat
Maafkan diriku, ku hanya ingin menghibur
Suaraku, gerakku untuk musikku
Dengarkan laguku bertaut irama
Seperti jiwa melayang bagai camar yang terbang
Sempatkanlah telinga dan mata 'tuk memujaku
Setulus hatiku jujur ku berterima kasih
Padamu Tuhanku dan semua yang menghargai
Semua yang telah setia s'lama ini padaku
Sudi mendengarkan dan menyimak segalanya
Yang buruk dariku kumohon lautan maaf
Ini nyanyianku persembahan dari hati
Wahai alam dan bumi bersatulah
Dalam nafas yang kuhembus lewat nada
Ingin ku mengelus yang muram
Membelai yang tertawa
Jadikanlah aku dewi dalam hatimu
Written on Saturday, November 1, 2008 at Saturday, November 01, 2008.
Saturday was fun!He came over with breakfast for me,the weather keep us too close for everything.Out to Aloha for his colleague wedding ceremony, the weather seems fine the moment we reached Aloha.It's been a while since the last time i went there.My feet doesn't seems like i'm stepping on the ground.It sick pain!The heels shit pain!I couldn't stop bugging him to take taxi off to our next destination.BURGHHHH!!!ough yea, i bought a pair of stripe blue shoe, and a pair grey jeans.Thanx for everything.Oh yea! I met my 7 years go ex boyfriend!!hahaha!! I was telling him, about our relationship, it only last for 3 days.shit crap.People change as time past.He's becoming more and more TALKATIVE!heh!Khai seems to find it shit crap when i confessed to him about the 3 days relationship!hahaha.Well that was 7 years back!In HMV, i was trying to put my interest in searching for the heavy metal new album(infact i know nothing about them, except for few of the fully develop band),so yea finally he got it what he has been searching for all these while.I couldn't stop saying 'poster hantu' the moment i saw the iron maiden cover album.It just remind me the poster in my bro's room.AND FEIST!!!!a new album has been release!!!Sheesshhh~~!!And ough!!! I'M SO FASCINATED WITH THE SWATCH WATCH MODEL!!!!COLOURFUL!!!CAN ANYONE GET IT FOR ME AS A B'DAY GIFT?!!yes-yes!! my birthday is coming.GET IT FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I'M WANTING IT SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!